So, yeah, today's my birthday. I've been thinking about birthdays lately, especially with Joshua's coming up. Even since the boys were babies, I've contemplated how we want to do birthdays in our family. I have such a different perspective now as an almost 30 year old and a mother. I can remember in years past having "bad birthdays" and feeling sorry for myself. Why? I can't remember details, but I guess everything wasn't going my way or I put so much stock in the presents I got and then found they didn't really make me happy or I didn't feel like the day was "all about me" like I thought it would be.
And then we have today. I have talked to my sisters on the phone, which is nice, and had a few birthday wishes over email, but mostly it's just your average day around here. There's laundry to do, kids that need me to play games with them or hold them or spank them, meals to be fixed, etc. Yet, it feels like a perfectly good birthday to me because now I know the world doesn't revolve around me and I don't expect it to!
So how do I convey this to my children? I want them to feel loved on their birthdays but I don't want them to think that if they don't get enough presents, have a big enough party, get enough attention, or have everything go their way that it is a bad birthday. I think I want to continue to do things I've done in the past to convey my love to them, like the birthday letters I write and the couple of pages of their scrapbook that I add to, but now that they are older, they are much more into the presents and parties so it gets a little harder to know what to do.
I think anytime that any of us focus on ourselves instead of those around us, we set ourselves up for disappointment and discontentment...even on our birthdays! I recently read a book to Joshua that was a great illustration. It began with a dog who was feeling really down. His cat friend finally figured out that it was because he didn't know when his birthday was. She admitted she didn't know when hers was either. Then secretly and separately, the friends stopped thinking about themselves and planned a surprise birthday party for each other, which ended up bringing both a lot of happiness of course. I'm going to continue to think about how we'll handle the kids' birthdays and y'all feel free to add your thoughts and ideas as well!